Friday, May 30, 2003

Gelato, double scoop of mango and rock melon ice-cream -$4.00 havent had better =D

i finally found it!





"Ikaugra" a puzzle/shooter, has had me boggled as to defeat the boss of the 2nd chapter... i sux pretty bad huh? well there were some things abt that particular boss that i dint noe... (i thought the shield opened based on timing).

well i dint get very far anyway and since i dint have the money to experiment a different method of playing so i shought the net for help.

i started my search abt 4mths ago, then the game had yet to be relased to the U.S. on Gamecube so most if not all of the reviews were in japanese.

imagine digging thro pages of unknown language, clicking on links that bring u no where. i gave up my search for i did not want to risk sanity.

abt 2 days ago i heard news that Atari had released Ikagura on Gamecube. so i tried again to search for some new infomation.

well im glad to say after some proper digging i found game hints and even some walkthro movies for some of the chapters.




Overjoyed is and understatement. also found like a whole lot of Ikagura illustrations! i slept a happy man =)









dun give up.

Friday, May 23, 2003

Royce' Chocolate, yogurt white -$12

wif two arduous wks of project submitions and final yr exibitions past, ive been left wif a pleasantly peaceful aftermath, with the exception of a hiccup detailed in a prev log, of time on my hands.

this time of abt 10days has left me idling, gaming and tieing up some loose ends (one of which being to clean up my room =D ).



skipping midweek service during the two weeks mention earlier and one more bcos of a public holiday, has left me rather dried out...

thus going back of service today was gratifying. peace reigns again and it feels really good esp after the service. my pastor while explaining "the ark" and the covent of the old testement made a quick remark,

"...actually it wasnt possible in the old testemant but Jesus did somethings that changed it..."

he was actually refering to the Jesus' obedience and death on the cross. however instead of being psudeo-reverent abt it, the remark was passed in the most casual way (jus as u wld talk abt ur frnd helping u in noe particular occasion). really cool and very... settling like a feather falling into my stomach the words fell.

ya i like the way my pastor sees Jesus.



its been a good week

Monday, May 19, 2003

Sakuma candy drops -$erm... gotta check out this one again...

AH! jus finished loading the mustard lable for the links.... though my archives still dont work :(

will look in to that much later.

im wondering if ive over done it... maybe the old fat eggs was better, maybe...

off to work on my comic strip.



gotta clear up my room...
Kellog's honey krispies -$4.90

i dint draw this

but im really sick of city life... KILL THE CITY!


Friday, May 16, 2003

sesame seed doughnuts -$0.60

argg... im still so pissed... damn shouted at my mom... its not right i should'nt shout at her...

i feel bad this sux.

im always in this unnessary pressure oh-man! need to get out of my ordeal. partly cos of the weather... it sux!



need to get well
muji's apple soda -$2.00 refreshing!

friends...



friends that i havent seen for a long time.



friends that i havent talked to for a while.



friends that jus turned 21.



friend that sabotaged me and everything i hold dear and still doesent realize the damge he's done.



friends that ill miss.



ah friend the word's too lightly used...



roger and bernard whom i havent seen and talked to for some time... rogers birthday party yesterday... he's got truckload of friends... he actually wanted me to get to noe his frnds...? weird... hows that possible...? ah but he's cool and sincere and a good frnd to hav... (ness if ur reading this it goes for u too!)

kinda envy him and peeps alike... hes got really good parents! both of em! wow... and lots of frnds too. ahh but atleast ive got one =D best mom in the world



bernard... haha we went through lots together. most impressionable was the camp we setup. 3 of us, my cousin bern and me! it was like peeps dint really want a youth church camp so nobody wanted to help out. but we believed there shld'ave been on every year. so we planned and runned the camp. twas really fun... and i wld remember all the time we took time out of our 'n levels' studies to do the camp... cycling, pasteing treasure hunt notes all over east coast, eating bk after that while planning the admins. yup good times =D



my good frnds haish! and then there are the...



hes been through some tuff times wif me too. but well thing jus got sour... sux u noe? like u though the best of ur friend and then this.

this frnd stuck by when no one believed we cld built a raft at ubin in one day... 3 of us... ubin... two nights... we built a raft that worked! jus that it dint hav enuff bouyancy to carry all 3 of us plus belongings... but we were mighty proud when we paddled it arnd the shore in front of the strine... yup real accomplishment and i still hav the oar we used for that one... haish... but this time he really got me in a fix... its work ethics vs frndship! how am i to pick!

arggg bad desicions!



so my frnd is workin now... on attachment. he asks me to do some work for him at the last hour and offered to pay me freelance wages... how am i to take money from a frnd? how? infact a job like his wld cost arnd 100 bucks per piece excluding extras. and i noe its a crazy amt to get frm a frnd whos only wages come frm attachment. (here in singapore they pay students pukes for internships.) and i noe he'll have it hard if he doesnt hav enuff to show for his presentation commin up in the nx 6hrs. so i made a him deal: that ill do 2 of the 5 pieces that he had to present and that he'ld find me a part time job and buy me lunch... well all seemed fine until he told me he was offically doing all this design work for FREE! madness i mean this is a killer on so manny levels!



1. ppl r gonna think: ah! design and designers are cheap we done need to pay for pple giving us ideas. and if that think like that the profession of design is in jerpordy... madness!!! i mean if u consult a doc uld pay him consultation fees so y the diff wif designers? or if u hire an accountant for his services wont u pay him? and are designers any different? we do a service and we expected to be paid! whether we are good at wat we do or not! ofcoures designers ought to be responsible but u dont go to a doc and ask him if he grad wif honnors of jus scraped thro wif grade "D"s do u?



2. since i have made some layouts for him and most unfortunately one of my ideas was picked... and since my frnd is offically not being paid for his work or works submitted under him, the peeps he's working for effectively get my design work for free. pple are gonna think: oh! we cld ask edwin to do graphic layouts for free! man! and if i asked for cash peeps wld be like : u do jobs for free so i dun expaect u to be asking for much or even worst or anything at all! well im not saying im superb, but since u wont ask a doc how well he did in sch b4 ya pay him, i think i sld be paid a market price when i get the job done. and so shld any of u designers out there.



3. hes design career is in jepordy too... but thats his ball game i shant go into that...



4. as the state of appreciation for the design pratice is seen still widely seen as a practice that doesent affect the way things are done, things like this is only gonna make the situation worst... i mean the boss of my frnd prolly thinks that the design of his advertising media is only needed to inform pple that their company exist. however this advertising media if done well, could attract attentions and leave impressions. which would effectively increase sales. yes and that is done by the power of design. futhermore these bosses think that they noe better than the designer - after all they orderded my frnd arnd, changing his/my planned layouts to their prefered config. oh man! and since the state of respect, which my frnd has given these bosses, of design its no wonder they think they can also do design... after all its free.



understand that im really mad at this frnd of mine since he apologized not, nor did he offer to right wat he did wrong. he barely told me he had no choice and make any comments when i tried to explained this situation to him (yes in a most infuriated way). i still wondwer if he understands the full and rippleing effects his actions cld cause. he prolly doesnt wanna do design when he grads anyway. haish. but ill trust my Jesus who has came through for me over and over again.



well these are the frnds ive encountered this wk... oh man! bitter sweet.

my jesus never sabotages

Thursday, May 8, 2003

BurgerKing - mushroom meal, heavy mushroom! -$6.00

alrite i must say -

a big thank u jesus

today was the day we put up our exibitions and yes, as promised i was given a small excess conner to put my work...

yes i was feeling depressed cos of that little corner cos its a really sucky small space. so today one of my classmates gott fever and another jus dint come and guess wat? i got a full space of my own! wohooo or yuppie cant express how happy i feel upon noeing that. i laughed myself all the way home!

the feeling was espically great cos thro the past my i had laden myself wif worries, depression, anxiety and the nightmares, which were a real killer. every day i woke up in a daze wondering how deep ive gone in to a shit hole. but today! its like a fresh breeze and moring sunshine woke me up from a twisted dream. oooooohh too many "haizz".



for all that you've done i will thank you,

for all that you're going to do,

for all that you've promised and all that you are,

is all that has carried me through,

Jesus i thank you.



oh man endless "thank u"s wont be enuff to represent the depth of love jesus has shown me. really. failure dont look so gloomy now cos jesus is sufficient for my joy. u noe ive spent $65+ in the past wk on cab fare jus to transport my exibits to and fro but now that im blessed sooo much $65 is chicken feed. after all nothing can buy happiness but when its given everything else seems small.



i have seen dawn!



life will get better in christ

Monday, May 5, 2003

MosBurger - a fish burger and a croquette burger wif one ice milk tea -$7.35

dinner... tonight i had two dinners! one at mosburger which felt some some wat small and 1�hrs later a bowl of porriage wif a tall glass of milk at home.

now im all bloated, its been a while since ive been so full, feels a bit giddy to have cramped so much in such a short span of time.

but my moms the best even aft working a whole day she still manages to cook a wonderful bowl of porrage jus for me. i wldnt trade moms wif anyone even if my life depended on it.

my moms the best!



ah well went back to school, and ive got problems wif my lectures again... i dont think we wld ever see eye to eye.

so much for beng given anoher chance - rite.

turns out ive become a convient space filler for the empty slots left by students who hav little to exibit. given leftovers. well i guess its still gd for me i dont noe how ild do it but im definately not going to conform to the conventions set by my lectures... jus that im so very tired, weary of having to fight my way to do wat i feel is right to do.

oh xian! here we go again.

surely there must be more fulfilling challenges in life... back to work.



press on!

Sunday, May 4, 2003

Post great grains crunchy pecans and whole grain cereal -$5.25

ah!

well i dint finish my final project on time, now they are telling me i failed...

failing sux

havent been failing in a while so it sux more

ah!



aft abt a mth of turmoil on a last min project i failed.

sux more since i gave up doing wat i liked to do and stooped to the lousy standards of my lecturers. ive failed as a contractor!

i shld shut up now rite.

i shld never stoop to doing wat i dont like jus to pass.



weird dreams

well my cohorts graduating exibition's comming up, and the lectures hav disapproved me of exibiting my work since my failure...

three days ago had a dream that they'ld let me participate in this upcomming exibition, but only if i finished a lage amount of work for this exibition. for that few hours in my dream imposed situation i experienced a large amount of stress since i was put in such a dilemma*.



*dilemma cos im not too keen on doing more tedious work jus for the exibition, yet i noe it will make my mom proud to see my work up as an exibit.



i was glad to wake up and quickly dismissed the dream.

well yesterday i checked my mail and realised that i hve been given a chance to the exibition if i had enuff to exibit.

hmmmm. weird... a bit freaky but the worst thing is that ive now plummeted back into the hole of stress, anxiety and dilemma since i feel like im required to do quite a bit of work before my deadline - which is tmr.

back to the drafting board i guess...



always hope for tmr.